rolling uncontrollably

I'm a great fan of "to do" lists. I installed Post-it software on my computer specifically for this purpose. Well, specifically so I can type out my to do lists days in advance, and then put the extremely satisfying "DONE" next to each task.
I checked off my last "to do" task - outlining my tax law course - with shaky, sweaty hands last night. I think my feet were drenched in steamy sweat too. My right forearm was twitchy from overexertion. I am really full of terrible ideas.
All because of a simple entry on my "to do" list: "rollers." I escaped the library early yesterday to meet a friend who was selling his rollers on the cheap. With only two single-speeds, I was advised that trainers wouldn't be nearly as effective, so when the rollers went up for sale, I immediately called dibs. The first person claiming them dropped out - lucky[?] for me.
As I planted "DONE" next to tasks already completed late last night, I saw the "rollers" entry. For me, that originally meant "get cash, be at home to pick them up." That somehow turned into "well, let's try them out!"

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This is sort of the time I kind of wish I had roommates to stop me from indulging my insanity. Against my better judgment, I set up the rollers in my hallway and propped my bike on top of it. And then I climbed on. That was the easy part. Now I had to actually get on my bike that was supported by this thing called air, and try to balance. I was half bracing myself against the wall, my hands flooding with nervous sweat as I attempted to push the pedals. Hunched over, clinging to my bars for dear life, I tried not to think about Mark's roommate, who managed to fly off his trainer into his TV, or Jones's friend who flew into his dorm room closet at 35mph.

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I'll admit, my courage lasted me a scant 10 minutes on the rollers, and that includes trying to get on. I left it in the hallway though, right in front of my door. I'm hoping the guilt of seeing it when I walk into my apartment will serve as extra motivation. And hopefully it'll also stop my hands from constantly sweating every time I think about them. Because unless I can master those rollers, my fantasy of watching movies with bike friends who are all on rollers/trainers is going to stay just that...and that's just unacceptable.